Thank you Authoress 51, and Willow for pointing out that sugar is NOT as addictive as cocaine!
YAY!! But does the white death thing still apply?? Sugar is empty calories, and has no nutritional value, so probably.
Yesterday when I stopped, I was talking about:
All of those things scare me. A lot. When I was in a wheelchair , it was horrible. I was helpless. Couldn’t go anywhere by myself, not even to the bathroom, because I wasn’t strong enough to push myself. So, I’d have to have an electric one. And those things cost 2 arms, and a leg.
A horrible disease might kill me, this time. Reversing the chronic kidney disease was a miracle from God. He doesn’t owe me, so what if I didn’t recover next time?
Dying from obesity is a very likely scenario, if I don’t change my ways permanently. And it’s not fun. High blood pressure, likelihood of strokes, diabetes, on and on. At the extreme end of the scale, (see what I did there?) being confined to bed, because they don’t make electric wheelchairs big enough for 899 lb people. What kind of life is that??? I know DH would be here for me. And the girls, my Mama, my 2 Sisters, my brother, my aunts,
and other family would still visit me, but could I even hug them? Would I have the breath to even talk?
I’ve talked to people about this. I’ve had a nutritionist appointment. 3 weeks ago, I even went down to the altar and prayed, and got prayed for by Pastor Robinson for this. I cried, and cried my eyes out. I told God I was really serious this time. Yet, here I still am, eating the Ding Dong.